Life

People make life seem so simple and I just want to tell everyone that it's not and that it's okay to feel that way. Coming from personal experience I know that I can get hard sometimes. Being bullied growing up I know what it feels like to feel weird because other people just make life look so much easier, but we may not know what's really going on. We all in a way put on a mask to cover up how we feel, look, and our insecurities. For example, I do not feel like I should post anything on Instagram unless I have makeup on. I think that a lot of this stems from being bullied when I was younger, but really there's nothing to be ashamed of. Everyone isn't perfect, skinny, and beautiful, like those big models like Gigi Hadid and Kendell Jenner, but we don't know, they could be going through depression or an eating disorder. Then there's other models such as Ashley Graham who advocates for people who are a little bigger and who don't always have that confidence that others have.
To all those people who think they are fat, ugly, dumb, too smart, or anything else I just want to tell you that you are wrong. I'm not just saying this to say this I have had personal experiences with these things, I was bullied, I have self-esteem issues and I saying this to help other people who might feel this way. Give yourself a little credit because you have made it through life this far and I know that whatever is happening to you, you can get through this. Personally, if you do feel these ways, I just want to tell you to talk to someone about this, if its a friend, a parent, a sibling, or even a professional, don't wait until you are ready to burst.
Goodbye'
Madelyn Ziegler

My Condolences

I just wanted to make an in between and talk about the terrors that have recently happened in America. Yes, I know that this has nothing against the rest of the world and that there are so many different countries out there who have continued to have horrible things happen to them and my heart goes out to those countries. In this country there has been issue after issue. First there was the hurricanes and I had people that I know that had substantial damage. Then there was the shooting in Las Vegas that was absolutely terrible and heart wrenching, knowing that there was someone out there that did that for no real reason. Then there was the run down in New York that included a man running down people near the Hudson Bay. Then there was the recent shooting in the Texas Church and from what I have read about it, the man was angry at his mother-in-law and he went to the church to shoot her and her fellow worshipers and when he got there she wasn't even there. Just recently there was a shooting in the small town that I grew up in with two casualties.
I would like to make something perfectly clear though, I am not against guns, I'm against gun violence but I don't think that just because there are people in this world with so much hate in their hearts that everyone is bad and that they should not have that right to protect themselves. There are the rare cases where someone uses a gun to shoot and kill others but that also means that there's also people out there that in extreme cases are able to use their weapons to protect themselves and others. Take for example one of my dad's, he is a police officer and he does carry a gun around with him to most places that he goes. That does not mean that he is going to use it to kill innocent people for no reason but instead defend and protect those people who are in harm's way.
Yet again I feel so much pain for those who are affected by this gun violence and my condolences are to you and your families.

Lots of love,
Madelyn

There and back

There is a reason that I choose this to be the title of my newest blog post and that is because of what's going on in the country today. We started off as a new eager country ready to become independent and its own and then we went to war with each other. Many lives were lost and many people were without loved ones. Then we found it within ourselves to sort out our issues and really become one again and now we are right back to a nation divided. Whatever standpoint you have listen here. We are going to cause so much pain and heartbreak if we continue on the path that we are on. 

The National Anthem is a time for us to stand and show our respect to those who have given their lives so that ungrateful people can throw around a ball for a couple hours and make millions off of it. I don't think that people not standing for the anthem is really going to get people anywhere, and I don't think that most of the people who are kneeling are doing it for "equality" I think they are doing it for a small amount of attention. I don't know what they are complaining about because there are so many people in worse conditions than they are. The people who lost their houses and lives due to the recent string of hurricanes or the people who never once in there live had a full stomach. Don't go around acting like you have a hard life because at least you have a house to go to at the end of the night and food to feed you are your children. I once did a missions trip down to Haiti and you won't believe the devastation and pain that they have all gone through and how little they have yet how grateful they are.
So listen up you entitled NFL players you have no right to go around disrespecting this nation and the people who risk their lives for you, and I totally stand by all those people who are protesting the NFL because I do to, and after President Trump spoke out about it and all the hate that he got I think that he should enforce a rule about kneeling because it is not okay now nor has it ever been okay.

That is all that I have to say on this subject.

Thank you

-Madelyn

School

So if you don't already know I am homeschooled. My parents took my family out of public school the summer between 7th and 8th grade. So while everyone else is doing the whole going to school and spending 8 hours on things that I can get done in 2 I'm sitting at home just about ready to punch a person. So yesterday was the first day of school for me unlike many other people who started it about a month ago, my sister and me are doing the same program for school and yesterday the site crashed from all the people are starting school and doing it, so it was about 2 in the afternoon yesterday when I actually had the chance to start school. Then today I went back to start school done again and I had the chance to read the lesson for math and then it crashed... again. I really want to get my school done so that I can do other things but instead I'm sitting here watching this rubix cube turn around and around and around. I know this is gonna sound strange but I actually like school and I like learning new things and growing my knowledge of the world around me. I don't think it would be that bad but I see all these people who are done with school and when they are done they're done but I'm sitting here feeling completely useless and I really don't like that feeling. Now that my rant is done I really want to wish everyone a good and successful school year and I hope that they just let loose and really enjoy it. I realize that it's not that easy for everyone but just remember that this is the beginning of your life and to really pay attention so that you can use the things that you learn in your future life.

The Future

     I'm not going to lie, seeing the way that the world is going right now I can already tell what the future might be like. This is just coming from my view of the people who are the future, it can't be that good. Most children that I have experienced have a sense of entitlement, like they run the world and that they can do whatever they want with no repercussions. I'm not saying that that is ever child out there but I've had a lot of run ins with children that don't get there way and when they don't get their way they throw fits and are highly disrespectful.

     Also in the future, the world will be controlled by technology. Even now the most important thing to people is technology, and their social medias. Almost all the jobs here today there is technology involved, and without technology the world would be in total chaos. The world is run by technology, phones, computers, iPad’s these things are what this country is running on. The future does scare me, and I really want the Lord to come before we must see the direction that the world is turning into. Even the teens of today are growing up thinking that everything should be handed to them and that they really shouldn't have to work for what they need. I'm not saying that everyone is like that and honestly this is what I think the future might turn into but you never know what will really happen and who knows the world might turn around and be just fine.

Social "Normals"

There is a certain standard that people everywhere are supposed to fit in to. There is a picture of the perfect female and the perfect male, females are to be skinny and tall and have pretty hair and eyes, and if you don't look like this then you are put down and made fun of. Men to have a standard that they have to fit into, they have to be tall, a six pack, and very muscular. When you see the average models they are models who are to almost unhealthily skinny. They also have models that are a little bit bigger then the other models, and they are referred to as "plus size" and being someone who would be categorized as "plus size" I don't imagine that that feels very good, beings pushed into the plus sized category. Study's show that the average size for women,s clothes are a size 16, but if you are a size 16 then in the eyes of society you are "fat" and "overweight". In my opinion it shouldn't matter how much you weigh and what size you are for clothing because if you are confident in your body and your size and you are healthy then honestly it shouldn't matter to anyone other then you. The way that you feel about yourself should be based squarely on you and not anyone other then yourself because in the end everyone else doesn't matter. I grew up not being confident in my body and listening to what everyone else said about me but now I know that it doesn't matter what they think because I'm healthy and happy and that is all that really matters. So just remember that what really matters is how you feel and how you think about yourself, and don't listen to those people that are not okay with you size that they don't really matter because they aren't perfect themselves.


-Lots of  Love
Madelyn

Todays Music

So today I am going to analyze the top 5 songs of today and give my opinion.

     1. Shape Of You, Ed Sheeran

In this song it talks about the blooming relationship between a man and a women when they meet in a bar. It talks about the man loving the way that they women looks and her body figure.
     I think that there is a really good story in this song and that it shows a really strong love between the man and the women, and the fact that it takes us along the story of there relationship and the beginning of there story.
     2. That's What I Like, Bruno Mars
In this song to me it talks about a very rich man flaunting around his money and using his money to get a girl and talking about all the different things  that he has been able to buy with his money.
     I think that he uses his money to get what he wants and I don't think that the story was a very moral story and that the story was a very discriminating and that they played the card that any rich man can get whatever he wants.
     3. Issues, Julia Michaeals
In this song I interpreted the lyrics to mean that every one has issues and that people mess up and make up for them and they have feeling and feeling can change and love is a giant thing.
     I do like the story behind this song, I like that it talks about how every one having issues and it talks about feelings and mainly it talks about the issues and I think that it raises confidence in people who have issues and make them feel as if they are not the only one.
     4. It Ain't Me, Selena Gomez and Kygo
This song talks about the relationship between  2 people and them growing apart and then when they are having issues they are not gonna be there to make them better.
     I don't like this song the most because I don't like the fact that just because they have "broke up" they can't be there for each other even though they obviously shared something.  
     5. Sign Of The Times, Harry Styles
In this song it talks you through a relationship of two lovers, and how they keep making the same mistakes and they keep getting hurt time and time again.
     I do really like this song and I like that it puts realistic expectations on a relationship and it tells that there are problems and its not all fairy tales.

So that is my take on the most popular songs in music right now.

Dedicated to John because he gave me this idea for a post and I told him I would do this 

Standing Together

     The country is divided, there is so much talk going around about the black people protesting against white people and telling them to leave and we are not attacking them and saying that it is racism, yet if we where to do that to them we would be socially bashed and we would be labeled as racist. All the people who are showing hate for the President and saying that they want to behead him in the yearbook. One thing that America needs to do is become one again. We need to band together like so many other nations are doing. England for example, after the Manchester incident there where so many different people that banded together to show love and support. The Manchester incident was a very sad and horrible thing, my deepest regrets to those who where hurt and those who lost a loved one. I felt so downcast when I read about the attack and my prayers go out to those who where effected by it. It really is amazing seeing so many different people gathering together and banding together to show support for Manchester, and a bunch of famous people gathering together and doing a charity fundraiser in Manchester for the victims of the terrorist attack. 

     I think that the nation needs to become one again and not be so divided based on what they want and what they think the nation needs. I also thing that the hate altogether in the nation should go away, so that we can once again become a nation of one people and we need to become as strong as we once where, and as loving as we once where. 

   Lots of love  

          Madelyn Ziegler

Hello Darkness My Old Friend

No this is not some sad thing that has to do with darkness or sadness, the title of the blog just popped into my head. So hello, I am going to restart this the same way that I have been doing for the last couple of blogs. I know that it has been awhile. Here's an update, so now we are in a new state We are living in North Dakota. So now I can say that I have lived in states South Dakota twice, when I was born and last summer, Alabama, Minnesota, and North Dakota. It is really stress full moving around so much and having to pack up all of the time, but after awhile you just expect it and you know that it is going to happen so you don't get super comfortable at one place. I think that the fact that we are home schooled and that even in school I myself wasn't that much into friends and I really liked being by myself. We are living in a three bedroom trailer house with my three younger siblings, my older sisters, my parents, and my grandma. There is a lot of different emotions running through my body. I never had a lot of luck with school but sometimes I do miss the normality of school and the fondness of having friends to joke around with. I do miss the normality of the day. This is to all the people that may have the same feeling of no normality and missing the days that there was a set schedule everyday, yes there a certain feeling that you get when you start missing somethings but what matters is that you find some sort of normality and you really hold onto that feeling. If you need someone to talk to there are many different people in your life to talk to. Don't bottle those feeling because in the end it can never be good. Express what you want and be happy with yourself and with everyone around you.

     That's all I have to say, be yourself and be comfortable with yourself

Lots of love everyone,

Madelyn

life

So a little of an update on what is happening in my life right now. I haven't blogged in a long time because we have been traveling everywhere, we started in Florida and now we are in Alabama.
So on the 13th of February my family and I stated to move down to Florida. We got there and we where down there looking for a place to live in someplace other then a hotel and we found something but it turns out that the person that was giving my dad the job was a liar so after about a week we packed up and left. Now we are in Alabama, we have been in a hotel for about a week and a half and now we have found an apartment that has enough room for our family and tomorrow we are moving out of the hotel and going to our new home. who knows how long we will be down here. there are some things that we need to do in Minnesota still so we will take occasional trips up north, so that me and my sister have the opportunity to see our dad and so that we can do stuff that we had planned for before we left for Florida. It is a little hard living so far away and moving from your home because that is where all of out family and friends are and it is hard not being able to see them and visit with them. I am hoping that we can find a place where we have the opportunity to meet new people and to make new friends and start accumulating ourselves into the community. I am ready to get out of the hotel and get my own space. Its different because i went from having my own room and my own bed to sharing a bed every night. in the new apartment me and my older sister are going to share a room. it shouldn't be that hard due to the fact that last time we lived in an apartment me and my sister shared a room. Im hoping that by the time that we get moved in that i can get back to a schedule and start posting more often. until then, have an amazing life and remember to be the best you you can be becuase you never know whos watching and whose life it could effect.

Get Over It

I know that I am not able to vote yet but the way that people are reacting to Donald Trump and him being the president is effecting my generation to. People just need to suck it up and realize that he is the President and there is nothing that we can do to change it. This country is starting to divide according to what people want on the basis of politics which I dont understand because you aren't really basing it off of politics more so on what he has said in the past and what other people are believing. I think that if more social people would show support for Trump then he would be more respected. Another thing is the threats that are being said against him are incredibly rude, actors saying that they wont work until Trump is out of office but we all know that they cant live without there careers as actors because then all the attention wouldnt be on them. The threat that Madonna made against Trump and his family was incredibly stupid and if I where gonna say that then I would end up in prison. Obviously someone had to like Trump or else he wouldnt be President, and last time I checked a lot of people wanted to move to Canada so I mean I can help you pack. So everyone just needs to grow up and  GET OVER IT.

Social Media

So many things can be said with social medias. Their are so many people out there that have an impact on what people think. Me myself have a twitter account and on that account i fallow many famous people. There are many people who influence over my life, their are people like Shawn Mendes a singer or 5 Seconds of Summer a band, their are actors like Chris Evans and Jennifer Lawrence who I look up to. They do say important things to influence the lives of their fans. But on the contrary they also say and do things on their social media accounts that have a negative effect. Many of the people on social medias say things like "you're perfect the way you are" and "dont change the way that you are based on what others think", which i totally agree with. You should never change the way that you are or the way that you see things based on other peoples opinions. 

     Another thing is the new president. I realized that yes Donald Trump has done some pretty nasty things in the past, but haven't we all. We just need to realize that he is the president and that nothing that we say or do is going to change that. I think that Donald Trump is going to be good for this country and in my personal opinion I wasn't a fan of Obama but you don't see me going around threatening him and his family. Most of the people on twitter are protesting him or supporting people who are protesting him and that is showing their opinions and they have the right to their opinion just like the rest of us. But what they are saying and doing isn't going to change a single thing. In 2020 we can elect a new president but until then get over your giant sized egos and get a life. Their are all these protest going on and quite frankly it might stop what might happen tomorrow but in the long run its not going to change what Trumps plans are and what he wants to do. 

     All in all, what you say on social media should only be positive and up lifting and what we say and what others say do have impacts on what others do, so make sure what you do and say is going to have a positive out come.

music

music really is an amazing thing. there are so many uses for music, just to listen to, to play, or sometimes for rehabilitation. Sometimes when you just find a really fun song that really speaks to you it helps you with so many things. there are many people or bands that i listen to more then others. the first one is Shawn Mendes, who I actually get to see live. He is an amazing artist who has awesome songs that have a really good beat. then there is the music that really speaks to the heart that you just lay on your floor for hours just listening to. In particular there is this band called  5 seconds of summer who are more punk pop that i really like who really sing what they want not want there fans want. theirs the old bands like Nickleback and Greenday that are an older band and newer artists like ed Sheeran. an amazing story about what the right music can do is there was this little boy who has a disease that makes it so he cant hear any sound without it being to loud without have a really bad effect and he also does sudden noises but one day his mom was listening to 5 seconds of summer and he heard it and the drums played by Ashton Irwin really astounded him and encouraged him to play the drums that make it so that he can play drums because he can control the loudness and it has really helped him grow and become a better person. there are just so many things that make music so special not even the lyrics all the time sometimes its the guitar rifts or that hit of the drum or the pound of the bass. there are just so many things that music makes amazing, Music has become a big part of my life. it gives me inspiration. it keeps me sane, when i have nothing else to do and no one to talk to there is always a Greenday song to keep me company. Becoming friends over music is amazing. having someone that you can discuss the new Ed Sheeran song or freak out over the concert next week, is just amazing. i don't know what i would do without music and how i would feel with out it.

subject change

I think that i am going to kind of change the reason for my blog. when i first started it it was mainly for myself and just messing around. but with the fact that through the internet we are able to change the way that some things are viewed throughout the world. even if it changes the way that one person sees something that dosn't mean that that cant stick a match and start a chain reaction. im sorry if anyone dosnt like the way that i see things but really this is my blog and this is my opinion then you can go get your own blog and express your feelings. i need to write about things that are actually important not about what im wearing and what my new glasses look like. those things are important to some people but to me they are a lot less important to things that influence others to do good. my quote is "Always be the best you that you can be because you never know whose whatching and whose life it could effect" and i am going to be a good social influencer and not one that tells people what to where. the only thing i am going to say is if you feel something then feel that and express it.