Life

People make life seem so simple and I just want to tell everyone that it's not and that it's okay to feel that way. Coming from personal experience I know that I can get hard sometimes. Being bullied growing up I know what it feels like to feel weird because other people just make life look so much easier, but we may not know what's really going on. We all in a way put on a mask to cover up how we feel, look, and our insecurities. For example, I do not feel like I should post anything on Instagram unless I have makeup on. I think that a lot of this stems from being bullied when I was younger, but really there's nothing to be ashamed of. Everyone isn't perfect, skinny, and beautiful, like those big models like Gigi Hadid and Kendell Jenner, but we don't know, they could be going through depression or an eating disorder. Then there's other models such as Ashley Graham who advocates for people who are a little bigger and who don't always have that confidence that others have.
To all those people who think they are fat, ugly, dumb, too smart, or anything else I just want to tell you that you are wrong. I'm not just saying this to say this I have had personal experiences with these things, I was bullied, I have self-esteem issues and I saying this to help other people who might feel this way. Give yourself a little credit because you have made it through life this far and I know that whatever is happening to you, you can get through this. Personally, if you do feel these ways, I just want to tell you to talk to someone about this, if its a friend, a parent, a sibling, or even a professional, don't wait until you are ready to burst.
Goodbye'
Madelyn Ziegler

My Condolences

I just wanted to make an in between and talk about the terrors that have recently happened in America. Yes, I know that this has nothing against the rest of the world and that there are so many different countries out there who have continued to have horrible things happen to them and my heart goes out to those countries. In this country there has been issue after issue. First there was the hurricanes and I had people that I know that had substantial damage. Then there was the shooting in Las Vegas that was absolutely terrible and heart wrenching, knowing that there was someone out there that did that for no real reason. Then there was the run down in New York that included a man running down people near the Hudson Bay. Then there was the recent shooting in the Texas Church and from what I have read about it, the man was angry at his mother-in-law and he went to the church to shoot her and her fellow worshipers and when he got there she wasn't even there. Just recently there was a shooting in the small town that I grew up in with two casualties.
I would like to make something perfectly clear though, I am not against guns, I'm against gun violence but I don't think that just because there are people in this world with so much hate in their hearts that everyone is bad and that they should not have that right to protect themselves. There are the rare cases where someone uses a gun to shoot and kill others but that also means that there's also people out there that in extreme cases are able to use their weapons to protect themselves and others. Take for example one of my dad's, he is a police officer and he does carry a gun around with him to most places that he goes. That does not mean that he is going to use it to kill innocent people for no reason but instead defend and protect those people who are in harm's way.
Yet again I feel so much pain for those who are affected by this gun violence and my condolences are to you and your families.

Lots of love,
Madelyn